I still love this guy, but I don’t know if he still loves me back
We’ve been off for some time now… but we never really stopped getting in touch with each other… Well, I mostly did the ‘keeping in touch’ part, but still you would reply to me, you would text me, sometimes you would be nice and sweet to me… I’d often ask my girls WTF is wrong with you?! or what is with all this mystery signs you’ve been showing me. it’s so hard for me to read you. I think I’m in denial. But I think deep down in my heart that you’re just using me now. You need me. You want me not because you love me because I meet something that you need. I don’t know how to really fully admit this to myself because it freaking hurts but eventually I know I should. For me to move on, find the right guy for me, grow into a better person. I know I should be listening to my friends. I know they get tired of me complaining of the same shit different day but it just sucks….
